Sunday, June 12, 2005

since the sch starts...i feel that everything seem to be changing...my family...my frens...myself...dun noe y...

there has been a problem that arise within my family but i dun tink i wan to talk much here but shiling and cm shld hav noe a little...at the start...after saying wat my sis said...i could feel that they were saying it was a bit of my fault...but was it really my fault? actually...i feel that everyone in my family hav our own fault...i hav a few talk with my sis till i cried again...everytime when i talk abt it i will wan to cry out...tats y i do not wan to sae...but the problem is like half solve...the second half will hav to see as the days pass...

talking abt my frens...it was no longer my former class TB27...it was a new class with new frens...though i noe some of the frens like qiuru, gekting, feifei, cm...but then the others i still dun quite noe abt them...i only talk to them a few times...but nw beginning to noe more of my classmates...then abt TB27...i feel that some of them seem to change a bit...tats wat i feel...but dun ask mi y...

haiz...talking abt myself...since i had my ITP...i feel that i had change a bit...sometimes i feel tat wat i sae was quite zhi jie which i might nt be like tat in the past...and i tend to talk much more nw with those i am nt so familiar with...and i am becoming more bad-tempered and get frustrated easily...when i am at hm...so it is veri difficult for my frens to see mi getting angry...i tink i shld start to change or else my family members will suffer...then...i am starting to feel lonely when i am at hm and dun quite wan to talk to anione...though i might seem ok in sch...dun noe y...tats y i wanted to find a part time job and i go out quite often nw...in the past...i will always stay at hm and seldom go out...but nw...i dun noe is it a gd or bad thing to mi...tink tats all i can tink of saying...

6/12/2005 12:30:00 AM
the scent still lingers