Thursday, August 18, 2005
I just turn 19 years old 3 days ago which is on 15 Aug...have abit of feelings that i am getting old...haiz...but life are like that...we still have to walk on...
Well, nv really celebrated my birthdae on 15 Aug cos have to study for my test on tues...anyway...i have nt been celebrating my birthday since i was very young so i will nt complain anything...but then receive presents from my current classmates...really thank you to them...
then yest went out to have dinner with my TB 27 classmates, shiling, karen, chiu ming, jiaxing, hanqing and siuyun at Essential Brews at Holland V...it was quite a nice place to have a chat there...then celebrated my bdae and karen bdae together with them...oso eaten the first and only bdae cake for this year...and the cake was really quite nice...
we had a chat over there...and i really enjoy myself cos it has been a long time since we chat so happily...like wat the others had say...for next sem there will be lesser time for us to meet up cos some of them going for IAP and some of them will be quite busy next sem...and the no. of ppl turning up for the gatheing is getting lesser...haiz...
just when shiling was saying that she behaves totally differently in sch and at hm then i realise that i oso had this problem...in sch...i will be happily chatting with my firends but once i get hm...i will always be giving my sis lian se kan without any reason and they oso didnt offend me...i really wan to ask myself "what had happen to me?"
sometimes i can really feel lonely cos my eldest sis will always be hm very late everyday cos to her, friends is really more impt than family and my bro will oso be nt at hm cos he will be at his gf hse or go out with gf or working sometimes...as for my 2nd elder sis...though she will be at hm after work most of the times...she will spent most of the time on the phone with her bf...and thats y i am really alone...doing hmwork sometimes...watching tv shows alone...and luckily there is still computer and internet for me to use and chat with friends...
In the past, i may feel ok that i am alone at hm...but nw...i feel totally different...but i can say my relationship with my parents are much better than before and they r the one i spent more time talking to but my relationship with my siblings are nt getting better...think shall nt say anymore or else u all will think there is a problem with my family...just hope everything will turn better in the future...
