my memories
Saturday, April 12, 2008
my mind has been filled with full of question marks...is it my problem? did i said anything wrong tat pissed her off? or the problem lies with her? or both of us? or we really dun hav anything to talk to each other cos we see each other too often every week? why? why? why?
this thing started like a few weeks ago...i have been thinking and wondering since tat day till now every nite...我一直忍着。。。忍得非常辛苦。。。i have been putting all the blames on myself...thinking tat maybe is really my problem...i tried to talk less when we were with our "gang" in sch and sometimes dun even feel like talking...afraid tat maybe she is jus pissed with watever i said...i even try to talk to her sometimes but the ans frm her sound pissed...so i tink maybe i shld keep quiet sometimes...
today finally managed to talk to my elder sis when i reach hm...ask her whether such thing happen to her and her friends...her ans was no...then tink she realised something wrong with me so ask me why i asked...told her my problem and again tears jus flow out from my eyes...seeing me crying she is clever enough to stop asking cos she knows i will cry even harder if she continue asking...
actually dun really feel like going out after sch today initially...cos maybe she will enjoy herself more with our "gang" if i'm nt ard...but i dun wanna let her feel tat i am avoiding her or i give her the feeling tat i am angry with her or wat which i am not...so i went...but we just seem like a stranger to each other...haiz...............................................
but i still believe there will be a solution to this problem...hopefully...
4/12/2008 01:33:00 AM
the scent still lingers